Hey everyone, how are you?
This physical pain that I am in is crippling me. I am unable to do most things at the moment.
I know that your probably sick of hearing about the pain that I am in. But it is the only thing that is on my mind at the moment. I was not able to do much yesterday because of it and I fear that today will be the same. Although I managed to get some of the STEPPS homework done, I did not complete it like I had thought I would. This means that it is something else for me to do. The good thing is that I did do some, which is better than nothing. But I mostly spent the day in my room in silence, as any noise or looking at screens hurt. I had to take the strongest painkillers that I have been prescribed, which did help a little. I am counting down the days until my appointment next week.
I fear that today is going to be much of the same. But I am determined not to let this get me completely down. I am a little discouraged by yesterday though and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t feeling down. The pain is definitely effecting my mental health. As everything seems such a struggle, even the simplest things, for example, having a drink. Every time I move my head it hurts. When I walk my knee hurts, it’s very debilitating. Today though, I am just going to have to fight on and get through the day. I have things that I need to do and I am going to try and focus on that instead of the pain.
The one thing that I was able to do was get a bit of reading in. It may not have been much but it was something. I think because it does not involve noise or a screen it is easier to do. So, today I want to read some more and get in some writing. Although, it feels odd to be in my room with out any sound from the television or the stereo. But if silence helps then it is what I need to do. Mentally, I am just gong to do some of the things that I can do off my WRAP plan and try and keep a positive spin on things. Otherwise, it will make me worse and I will fall into a depressive downer, which is not something I want.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.