Hey everyone, how are you?
It’s finally the weekend and I can say goodbye to this horrid week. And hopefully the weekend will be better.
Today, I am not going to be doing much, as I am still in a downer and my motivation is still very low. I have some things that I need to do, rather than things that I want to do. Although the likelihood of anything getting done is low. As this depression is really getting to me and is stopping me from achieving anything. One thing that I, in theory, should be able to do is watch a Netflix film. It is one that was recommended to me and is meant to help with motivation. So, I want to watch it at some point over this weekend. I can’t be certain that I will watch it today.
Lately the main thing that I have been doing is watching television. I think because it is mind numbing, that I don’t have to think about anything when watching it. That being said, I want to try and do more this weekend and get myself out of this downer. I want to write and get these negative thoughts out of my head. I think that the problem I’m having is that I don’t know where to start or how to start. All I know is that I do want to write about it.
If possible I want to try and watch less television and use other distraction techniques. Such as reading and drumming. I have done little of both of these activities over the last week and it is something that I want to do more of. I think it will all depend on how I am feeling. I want to feel better, I just know that it will take time. I do get frustrated with it and at times I want to give up. But I am going keep on fighting as I have too much to loose, if I give up now.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.