Hey everyone, how are you?
I’m really struggling at the moment as I am in a lot of pain. And finding it hard to stay motivated.
Physically and mentally I am struggling. My head is constantly banging with a headache and my mind is whirling constantly. Coming up with crazy ideas and thoughts. It is driving me mad and I know that others around me are starting to notice. The hardest thing is that it is stopping me from doing the things that I like to do. Writing, reading and gaming and so on. Unless I have either errands to run or appointments to go to, I find it hard to get up and get out of the house. The only thing that I am managing to do that gives me any sense of pleasure is drumming and that is limited because of my headaches.
I know that motivation is not just going to come to me. And that I have to find it myself, I just do not have the energy right now. I believe that my slight depression from last week is turning into a downer. And that is not something that I want right before I go on holiday. I am hoping that it will get better by the time I fly out to Ireland next week. As it is something that I have been looking forward to and I don’t want anything to spoil it.
Today, I am going to force myself to do the things that make me happy. I do also have to go out and get some things done. Boring things such as pick up repeat prescription. But it will also get me out of the house for a little while. I am also determined to write and get the first chapter finished. I also want to read a set number of pages in the book that I am currently reading. I am aiming to have it finished by next week, before I go away. No one is going to hand me a box of motivation, I need to do it myself.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.