Dreading today

Hey everyone, how are you?

Today I have my second physiotherapy appointment. I am anxious about it, mostly because I know that I am going to have to stand up for myself.


My anxiety has been going since yesterday and I will be impressed if I managed to sleep tonight. It didn’t help that my knee had been playing up yesterday because of all the walking that I had done the day before. I took all my painkillers (as prescribed) and put some deep heat on my knee and I was still in pain. I have been doing the exercises set at my previous physio appointment each day. Although, I have not been doing them for as long as they wanted. This is on my doctors advice, to only do it until it hurts and not to try and “play through the pain.” I ended up resting most of yesterday because the medications make me sleepy.

The reason that I am anxious is because I know that I am going to have to stand up for myself. It was the introduction of physio that made my knee worse. And I think that I need to be referred to the knee clinic where someone more specialised can look at it and even do some diagnostic tests; such as, an MRI or a X-Ray. I am not surprised that one hasn’t been done already, as I had the same hassle when going through this with my shoulder. I also know that physio is not going to like being told that it was them that made it worse, so, am expecting them to get defensive.

The only thing that I can do to keep my anxiety at bay, is to keep myself distracted. Yesterday, I mostly slept, but when I was awake I tried to read and watch television. It sort of worked. I am not liking how the pain is effecting my mental health. It has made my mood drop and my anxiety high. And it is not going to change until I am out of pain. It shows just how important it is for physical health and mental health to be treated equally. I really hope that today goes well, am keeping my fingers crossed.

Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.


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  1. You should be able to have a rational, factual conversation with the physiotherapy people. Becoming defensive is not an acceptable reaction of a professional. Working with the patient to solve the problem should be the sole focus.

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