Hey everyone, how are you?
Today, I am having an ECG done to check my heart, after having a high heart rate and pulse when at the doctors on Monday.
I am still anxious about having an ECG. It is not the first one that I have had. But last time it was not out of the blue like today’s one is. As I was in the hospital and they were trying to figure out if I had pneumonia or not. I’m hoping that it will all be clear, as my heart rate has gone back to normal over the last twenty four hours. And although that is of some relief, I am still having some anxiety. It’s mostly the ‘ ‘what if’ questions that are running around my head. And they are hard to stop and to distract myself from. All I can do is reassure myself that if there is something wrong then at least they will be on it. It’s still hard though.
The ECG is not until the middle of the afternoon, so, before I go I am going to have to do some more distractions. I had a headache that would not go away yesterday, so, didn’t do much. But today I must get on with some projects that have piled up. I want to get back into these projects and the only way to do that is to just throw myself back into them. Use them as a means of distracting myself from the appointment later on. Doing things like watching television is not a good distraction, as it allows my mind to wonder. I need to do something that engages my brain to stop the thoughts.
One thing that I will be doing is some more drum practice. I didn’t do any yesterday because of my headache. So, I want to make sure that I get some done today. It will also help with my anxiety as I can focus that energy into the timing of the drums. I find it to be very cathartic. I also might get in some gaming as well as that is another good distraction for me. Although, I must get on with some writing as well and get back on some emails as well. I also hope that I get a decent night sleep, it has been a few nights since I slept well.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.