Hey everyone, how are you?
Things are so up in the air at the moment that what I plan to do doesn’t happen.
In The Air
The things that I need to do this weekend are looking increasingly like they are not going to be done. This is because I have mental health problems and they have really been playing up over the last week. And it has stopped me from doing things that I need to do. I have been having more bad days than good lately and it has taken a massive hit on my productivity. I have things that need to be done and deadlines coming up, one of which is this week. That I am fearing that things will not get done, or will get done but at the last minute. Yesterday, I was only able to do things from my bed. So, I mostly read and watched television. Rather than sitting at my desk and writing. I am hoping that today is better but I really will not know until I wake up in the morning.
Today, if I am in a good place inside of my head then I will be writing. So, that I do not fall behind on the things that I need to do. I need to do some research for the book chapter. I have an online meeting on Wednesday and the research needs to be done for then. So that is my aim for the day. Nothing else, just research. I mentioned in a previous blog that I am going to have to find the journals and then email them to a friend to download and then upload to the account we have for the book chapter. So, it is not something that I can do last minute as it will not be fair on my friend. I’m not going to plan to do anything else other than the research. I will just play things by ear. There is a chance that even the research will not get done today.
I don’t even know if I will game or read today. I don’t want to say that I am going to do it and then not do it. As I know that setting myself up to do it and not doing it is increasing my depression and feelings of worthlessness. If I do have another bad day then I will probably just sleep and watch television.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.