Hey everyone, how are you?
I am now the one in hospital, albeit a psychiatric hospital.
After the adrenaline rush of Friday my mental health crashed into a depressive downer. It became harder to do things that I enjoy, such as, the gaming and drumming. There was no pleasure in it. And my thoughts were starting to spiral, so, I called the mental health rapid response service (MHRRS) and am now back in The Haven. I have been assessed and they are going to check again with me at 7pm to see if I am going to be staying overnight. I don’t know if I will or not when I write this. I just want to do what is best for me to get better. There is not much to do in The Haven, but I have a book, a writing book and my headphones and plenty of internet data to listen to music and watch videos. So I will be able to keep myself occupied throughout the evening/night. I am a bad sleeper when I am here, so, if I do stay the night they may have to give me something.
Depending on whether I stay the night will then depend on what I do today. If I am at home in the evening then I will be up at the usual time and getting on with my day to day life. If I stay overnight at The Haven, then when I do get home I know that I will be tired and will rest. The initial aim for the day is to get some writing done, but that is looking increasingly unlikely currently. I may have to do all the writing after I have recovered today and the bulk of it on Tuesday. It is not ideal but if that is the way that it has to be then I will go with it. As I was told during my assessment yesterday, that I need to look after my mental health better and things will only change when my thinking changes. Which I knew, but it hits harder when someone else says it to you.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.