Hey everyone, how are you?
I’m back home again after another trip into The Haven because of my poor mental health.
I think that things are starting to improve, I am not having the thoughts that I was having twenty four hours ago. I was able to talk when I was in The Haven and the staff were very understanding. I was able to rest and take some time out. I was also able to sleep without the aid of any medication. Which was good, as previously I have had to have sleeping tablets. Although, my mind did start playing tricks on me. But I just spoke to one of the nurses and we put a plan in place. This morning, I stayed until I had to leave for my counselling session. The session was good and we covered the last week and how things have been and the thoughts I have been having. I am really glad that I am doing counselling and I really believe that it is going to help.
Today, I need to check in with the recovery centre, as that is part of the plan that I came up with at The Haven. I can’t do that until the afternoon as it is not open in the morning on Wednesday. So, I will spend the morning chilling and just take things slowly. I want to get on with some writing today and try and keep myself busy. As being bored will set me back and make me ruminate again. And I don’t want to go back down. Although, I am going to be keeping a close eye on my mental health for the next few days to see if there is a correlation between starting counselling and my mood. But back to writing, I want to finish the second chapter of the short story. I am so close to finishing and I don’t want to stop now.
I also want to get in some drum practice, as it will help with my mental health and help tire me out. And the more I am tired the more likely I will sleep at night. I also want to try out some new drum beats and my friend and drum teacher wants me to film what I have been practicing so that he can watch and give feedback. At the moment we are unable to meet up so we maybe doing a lesson online when we are both free. Either way, it will be good to get back on the drum kit as it is one of the distractions that I use to help me stay calm. I’m hoping that it will be a good day, but know that I am not out of the woods yet.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.