Hey everyone, how are you?
I should have a doctor appointment today, although sometimes they don’t get booked in.
I have an appointment as he wants to check in on my mental health, as things have been hard lately. I don’t know what time he will call, I just know that it will be at some point in the afternoon/evening. It is because of covid that the appointment is not face to face and therefore not given a specific time. I do miss the face to face appointments and will be happy when things go back to normal. But like everyone else, I have no idea when that is going to be. I do have to go to the surgery a week on Friday as I have to have a blood test, but that won’t take long. I may see if I can get my blood pressure checked at some point when I speak to the doctor. As when it was last checked it was a little high abs was queried by the nurse. So, it is something I am keeping in mind.
I think mentally, I am doing as well as can be expected. I know that I am suppressing a lot and I know that it won’t be healthy in the long time. But for now, it is getting me by. I know that at the funeral it will hit me hard, I find that funerals always do that to me. So I have a plan in place to keep myself in a safe place afterwards. But really I am just trying to get through each day and it is exhausting. I really hope that things will get better after the funeral and that I can move on and what I have been suppressing I can let out in a healthy way. One thing that I may do is write something for her. It was something that was suggested to me by my counsellor. And it will be something that I just keep for myself.
I am hopeful that this appointment goes ahead, if not then I will have to ring the surgery and get an appointment booked either over the phone or through the online service. It does make me anxious but I am trying to not to call in and check. So, I will give it until the usual time and if I have not heard anything then I will call. But hopefully it all goes well.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.