Hey everyone, how are you?
I am back home after another trip into The Haven. It was a good decision to go in and I was able to rest and calm down.
I have been panicking a lot and having a lot of anxiety, because of bad sleep and nightmares. I has been distracting myself and everything like that, but it was not working and I was unsure of how much I could keep myself safe. So, I made the decision to ring The Haven and use my bespoke care plan. And it was the right thing to do. As I was able to talk about what has been going on in my head lately and just have some time in a calming environment. When I got there I spoke to one of the nurses and I was feeling really anxious. And as a result of this I was having a bit of chest pain. As my anxiety often mimics the feeling of a heart attack. They gave me some medication that helped to calm me down.
I spent the night in The Haven and was able to get some sleep. I was able to have a good night where the bad dreams/nightmares were not as bad as they have been the previous nights. Before I went to sleep I had a conversation with the nurse on the night shift and we put a plan in place if I did get the bad nightmares. Where I would tell them and they would use some grounding techniques to calm me down, so that I did not freak out. But we did not have to use the plan. The next morning I had another chat with the nurse I saw when I got there the previous day. I had my counselling in the late morning so was wanting to get home for it. I left The Haven between half nine and ten.
Today, I should have a doctor appointment where we can discuss the anxiety and also the results of some physical health issues that I have been having. I plan to have a chill day and just stay at home and relax. There is some writing that I want to try and do, but it is not easy with my wrist still in a splint. I will also get and reading done as well as I will have the time today. I don’t want to overload myself but I also do not want to be bored as that can be just as bad for the thoughts inside my head. I am hoping that today will be a good reset day for the week, making the rest of the week easier to deal with.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a good day.